About 2 1/2 years ago, I liked a post on Facebook of someone doing a handstand, a few weeks later that person friend requested me and I accepted.
It turned out they were looking for clients for a bodyweight mastery course which would have me hand standing in no time.
I was told that there were minimal spaces and I had to give a short reason why I should be accepted…it went something like…”I want to be able to show everyone that bullied me at school or called me skinny that I grew to be bigger and have skills not many of them would have” It was a lot more emotive than that but I’m paraphrasing.
It was on reflection a lot of self-indulgent, egoistical bollocks but at the time it was true.
Fast forward to a week ago, I was talking through goals I had for 2022 with the coach from that mastery course, this year my goals were all aimed at the same target of ‘getting bigger’ or ‘bulking up’ again to satisfy anyone who had called me skinny or weak, all motivated by what other people expected of me, not what was good for me.
This year all my goals are centred around my health, keeping flexible, keeping moving, this is achieved by some pretty cool callisthenic movements…but they are the secondary focus.
Why the change? as well as exercise and workouts I’ve been working on self-esteem, perception, and general mental health.
I’m a big advocate of self-improvement and change, I don’t believe anyone is too old to change, I do know I’m happier now than I was a year ago, I’m healthier and stronger mentally and physically.
So…as my site is being used for naff all else at the moment, I decided to write about the books I read and the resources I looked at to get to this point, a big step really as I’m not a big talker about these things, neither do I like photos of myself online particularly, but the one on this blog is a record of sorts of how far I’ve come.
So I’ll leave with this quote from Seneca a stoic philosopher:
“What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself”